I thought I would send you a positive message about last night's service.

I have been involved in Spiritualism since I was a little girl. I must admit at times my faith has sometimes wavered,

On the 8th July 2002 I lost my son Tommy, I was 33 weeks pregnant and he was stillborn. You can imagine the shock and horror of the whole situation. It is something that lives with you every day of your life. More damaging is wondering everyday if I had done something wrong, it is a horrible burden to carry. Whilst I have always known he is around me I have always wanted for a medium to acknowledge the fact. It has never happened before now.

Last night at the service the medium mentioned that he had a small boy with him about 5, my heart was beating so fast I think I knew immediately it was my Tommy. There was a point where I thought I may simply explode with emotion so I looked at the medium and gently shook my head and he stopped. I then had to leave the room and compose myself almost prepare myself for the realisation that Tommy was coming through for the first time. I sat back down and listened to the rest of the service during which time it was said that the message given to the little boy's Mum was that she didn't fail him. This is possibly the most important message I have ever received. For no matter how long I have known he is around I have never had that message from him. At the end of the service the medium approached me and said that the little boy chased me out of the hall when I left to have my little cry.

I cannot put into words the weight that has been lifted from my shoulders, I no longer will carry any guilt. I know now it wasn't anything I had done. I would dearly like this message to be passed on to the medium, he was the striking looking man wearing glasses, because of his gift I now have peace. While I still miss my little man every day and always think about what he would be like, I no longer have the ache in my gut that makes me think that it was my fault, he was in my tummy and as his mother I didn't keep him safe............now I know I DID do everything I could, he just wasn't meant for here.

Thank you so very much.

Lorna, Canberra